I think about age often.
Not every day or anything. But now and then I would think about being old (like 70), and how it must be terrible or at least not too pleasant. I am afraid of it more than of death.
However, growing older is also such a smooth and nice process.
Not that I am actually old or anything. But I remember being sensitive about my age just last year. Today, I am completely comfortable with being 25. I have friends that are only 18 or 20 and they call me big sister, or sometimes they call me mom for a joke. When they do that, I would laugh and then let them get water for me. It's actually quite nice to be a big sister.
(I never knew, because I am an only child)
Young people sometimes act or speak disrespectful or condescending about old age. In my opinion, they actually have no just reason to.
Personally, I am wondering why nobody tells them that being young is actually more awful. I would never, never, never ever want to go back to being 15. Or 16. Or anything under 20 for that matter. All these conflicting feelings you have, having to depend on your equally unstable peers for guidance, not having quite figured out yourself...
I might only be through a quarter of my life at the max. However, the more I progress, the more I feel at ease with myself. I know that in due time, I will also feel at ease with the people around me, and finally with the world as a whole.
I don't know.
But that's what I came to believe, and that's what it feels like to grow. So that's what I am actually looking forward to!
I mean, there is so many things to bring you down. Maybe I'll take on a job I hate, or I'll end up poor and unable to fend for myself, or I'll be struck by bad luck in general and will have to endure a life of pain, or when I finally hit 50+ my body will slowly but surely fail on me by the by... But at least you can count on yourself, and be at peace with the person that you are, that you cannot change even if you wanted.